38 from now on

I really can't even begin to grasp -but I can easily accept it (after all how some one can't accept its age)- that I'm that old.

Is just that I can't believe that I'm near 40, it seems unbelievable; I don't mind being old, things seem to be more clear with experience.

I can't be forty in 2 years, if the swine or what ever the fuck doesn't wipe me off, it seems really, really weird.